Dear Ashley,
Many teens who become pregnant later realize that the child saved their life. For you, however, the situation is different. When you made the decision to keep Lexi nothing changed. Infact, it seems as thouh things have progressively become worse for you.
Before having Lexi, you lived with your boyfriend and did a lot of drugs, but you had a job and went to school. You may have been spending most of your money on those drugs but you had a steady, minimal income.
After having Lexi, you dropped out of school, got a new boyfriend and were fired from your job. You still did a lot drugs and lived with your new boyfriend. Quite frankly, I’m surprised Lexi doesn’t have any health problems or birth defects.
Seven years later, Lexi is now living with your parents and you are nowhere to be found. Lexi has been moved around so much that she has never stayed in one school for a consecutive six weeks.
When Lexi came to stay at our house a few weeks ago I learned a lot about her. She never finished all of the food on her plate even if she liked it all. But she was always asking for snacks shortly after. She said she always shares her food with you. Were you really spending so much of your money on unnecessary things that you couldn’t provide food for your own daughter. Lexi can’t read the simplest of sentences. You’ve told her that you are going to homeschool her so she doesn’t need to learn to read right now. But when you are never around how could it ever be possible for her to be homeschooled. She knows you are “at the doctor for your brain,” as she says and she knows her dad is homeless. This poor seven year old, little girl is having to deal with the weight of so much crap her family already.
You have failed as a mother. I can only imagine what Lexi will learn from you and carry into her older life. Maybe she’ll learn from you instead. One can only hope.